So...
3 days before Halloween and still no costume...
4 days until I attempt to do the NaNoWriMo monthly writing challenge...
Hoping to hear back from the business I recently had an interview with sometime this week.
I'm not sure which one is giving me more anxiety...  Maybe all of them combined are not exactly helping the best.
I just haven't had the best time in the job department lately. Ah well I will hopefully figure this out soon enough!

About the Halloween Costume, I originally wanted to make my own costume, but with weather being crappy lately and not able to do what I need to do oustside to prep my material I haven't been able to get that part done.. I left the rest far too long with other things on my mind...
Guess it's a figure what I can do with whatever stuff I have around the house and see what I come up with!

As to the writing challenge, the previous year (and other times I've attempted on my own times) have never made it to the finish. I hope this year to get it done but I have a lot of other stuff that is going to crop up in November.

November is going to be a busy month and that is pretty good. I am tired of some of the past slow months. I want to be busy. These are some of the things that I am going to be busy with in November.

• Making all my Christmas cards. About 20 cards in total so far as I know!
• NaNoWriMo writing a novel challenge - 30 days - 1,667 words each day! 
• Tai Chi - Been doing this since September and going to keep it up hopefully for the rest of my life! It's fun plus with the Tea breaks it's not just a class, you get to actually chat with the people that you take your classes with! A sort of community feeling from it as well! :)
• Hopefully working/ if not job searching everyday!
• Working on organizing my craft room!
• Celebrating my birthday on the 28th!!! Yep Going to be 28 on the 28th. This is supposed to be a special kind of birthday from what I have been told so going to make it so! Just need to figure out the details!

It's going to be a lot but I am determined to get it all done!!!
Well I hope to hear what you are busy doing! Will also post some of my random makes I make as well in november.. not Christmas card related as I don't want certain people seeing their card I made for them until I give it to them. Those will be posted after Christmas I think!

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Writing, my 30 day goal!

So today was the second time in a row that I woke up at 4 something in the morning. Since I was up so early and couldn't get up to anything noisy as my boyfriend was sleeping in our room I decided that I would finally sit down and start writing a new story (well revisiting an old and rewriting it completely from scratch it seems. I plan on putting the pieces of this story together from what I remember from the many different attempts at writing different pieces. This is also going to be my 30 day challenge of writing a 50,000 word story in 30 days. Successful so far as I have had 2 very long periods of time of doing nothing but writing today. One in the very early day. Another later in the morning before noon. 3,958 words later I have done more then enough for one day and I can finally say that I am starting to formulate something that I would like to try and keep up with for once. This is not the first time that the characters within what I am writing have surfaced. I can recall about 3 or 4 other attempts at writing them out on paper.

Seems that I cannot get away from my passions of writing even though I have little faith that I am really all that good but I have always aspired to be a writer. I have always aspired to be a writer, it was the one constant.. you know as a kid what you wanted to be? It always changed, well I always seemed to know that you couldn't just be a writer and had other goals in mind of what I wanted to be, a veterinarian, a zookeeper etc etc. Author was always there right beside whatever else I had chosen.

I seem to have let my writing fall to the wayside lately and this blog it seems. I wrote this hoping to step out into the world a little more and to write what was on my mind. It seems that I must truly have a fairly boring world that I live in....

I aspire to dream, I aspire to write, I aspire to be me, the real me, not be fake, not take crap from anyone, be bullied into being something else that I am not. Surely I have a lot of different things I want to take up as stuff I am interested in doing but always I come back to writing. It is my world, it is my lifeline when there is nothing else. I cling to it as I would a life raft. Without it I don't think I would be the person that I am.. and I can say that reading books is what had caused me to want to write in the first place. There is more to this but that is all I will divulge in those details... they made me whom I am. I don't need to prove myself to anyone.

2 days until my b-day

Yep, almost that time again.. Not really going to be doing anything particularly special, just go out to my favourite restaurant for dinner. Surprisingly I usually don't get excited for Christmas until after my birthday but for some reason the holiday spirit has hit me earlier then ever. I have been trying to make some cupcake ornaments. (I don't have a tree to decorate but for some reason I saw a few tutorials on youtube and they made me jump at the chance to get some new supplies and try something new. Nothing is yet finished and I am trying to find my own little tweak to make them uniquely my own.

Usually I am more of a halloween kind of person but this halloween the only thing that I did was work and really late hours as well. Suppose that is why I wasn't so excited. I had known quite in advance that I would be working that day... Oh well. I suppose that is what happens sometimes.

Well I am excited about my birthday, to get together with some friends and family and do something simple but very pleasant! :D

Hmm..

I missed out on Halloween this year so either today or tomorrow I am going to fool around and dress up in some costumes and have a little halloween fun! Yeah I know late but I suppose better then never.

I think I might go to the fabric store to see if they have any halloween-y type fabrics for sale since it is well past that day. It would be nice. I have a few ideas of things I want to make with those kinds of fabrics. It might just be a nice idea to do some things while I am in the mood to.

So.. November is my birthday month.. I haven't really been excited about it like I used to be a few years back, maybe I am starting to feel the age? Maybe it just doesn't feel as exciting as it used to? I just don't understand, usually I am excited about birthdays, especially my own. Oh well. I guess I just have to get in the mood to be.

I suppose I have to get over my whole Halloween thing before I can try to be excited about my birthday near the end of the month. First before then is Remembrance Day. That is first and foremost in my november agenda.

Oh yeah and it's nanowrimo month and I missed out yet again by not remembering that it was this month.. no idea how I have forgotten since last year when I first found out about it. Maybe next year I might actually try it out, if I don't forget, that is!

Well I guess I am off to go do some things around the house! Should probably start catching up on things if I can around here.

So... I am back again...!

So today has been one of those days where I haven't really been working on the goal of finding inner peace, kind of got sidetracked with the busy hum of everyday life. It seems that I was finally able to log in again after trying to figure out my password.. oh boy! I am so silly sometimes.

I have decided that I am going to have to figure out how to go about doing this goal and make it seem less of one of those things that you set for yourself but something that you do for yourself instead. I need a little more calm, a lot less clutter in my life right now. It is getting a bit beyond me on how to go about doing things.., other then cleaning my house but I just seem to lose interest pretty fast since it is just such a daunting task and I feel utterly at a loss as what to do with a lot of this stuff. Maybe it is time to start selling a few more things off again so that I can make a little extra $ on the side as well as feel a bit better about getting rid of some of this stuff.

Well who knows? I will have to figure it out for myself because I am the only one who can.

Until next time, have a great day!

A new journey to undertake.

Well I never seem to be able to keep to the 30 day challenges I set for myself. So in lieu of these challenges I am going to do something a little different, I find my life getting more hectic and stressful and seemingly crazy. It's bringing mass amounts of turmoil within myself as well.

So I am going to every single day for the next year work on finding a little bit more inner peace within myself and try to reconnect with who I really am. I feel in this myriad dazzlement of today's society and all the stresses that come with it are finally starting to take it's toll on my body. I am overtired, stressed, feeling a bit more anxious then I have ever felt before in my life. My personal writing is getting back into that dark and dreary worlds of existence. Everything that I have held dear has lost it's connection with me, and my dreams for my life and what I want to do are non-existent right now. Winter is nearing and if I am feeling this way already I cannot imagine what winter is going to be like for me.

If you anyone has any advice on how to move forward with this new adventure, please let me know! I know that today I am going to make it all about fun. I have a new gaming hobby/ obsession called HeroClix and some people are getting together today to play. I think with working 9 days straight, one day off then working 13 days straight with 1 day off and who knows what the next couple weeks will bring, is taking it's toll the most. I don't eat properly, don't exercise too much, don't find time to just breath.

I have to find my balance! I will find it! I am determined to, for my mind, body and soul!

I suppose then I will try to keep an update, here and there. I plan to do blog everyday about this. This is but a goal, a realization that I am the only one who can make the changes to feel better about myself, to find myself, to centre myself.

Though I will need a little help from family and friends for encouragement and support on this newest of journeys.