The darkness I surrender to, this bliss of sweet nothings. Chaos meets thy beauty, bodies entwine, the music pounds our very bodies through to the core. I am young again in it's transient melodies that bounce off the empty halls of our reverie. May the night be always so that we can dance forever and never have to face the realities without these walls.

Why can't I just be me? Why can't I just be free to be whom that I truly am? This person I show now is but a small fragment of the whole picture that you see. Like everyone that surrounds me we all are multi-faceted but only show a small portion of who we are because we are afraid of society's limits and expectations that we forget that we should just be ourselves instead of letting the chains that bind us not to our own wills can be easily shaken off if only we can find the strength within ourselves to shed the chains of self doubt and insecurities and let the people that we really are shine through.

Till then we will always be stuck in the rut of this cycle that forver spins outta control.. I wish to take control of my life now... For now though I shall have to wait to be set free.....

Just something flittering on my mind right now.

Originally wrote this awhile back.. I feel the darkness silently creeping in, the changes within coming on. Shall I release my inner self to the world that surrounds me, that closes in even as it opens up to me in newer ways that I never thought possible, swirling and twirling, so many desires, so many truths to be found in this life. I'm not sure which path to take yet as I stand here at the crossroads, lost yet found for my heart feels lighter even when everything feels so surreal and strange in this realm of whatever. Maybe it is better to be on the road to searching oneself's inner desires and banishing the inner demons that try to take control then just living the lie of standing still not searching within of what I truly want to do with my life for now that I am actively searching these things that I never really gave true thoughts about I have felt the veil lifted and the weights being released. Yet in a way I feel bound yet again. It just doesn't make any sense to me, this world, this life... not yet anyway.