A new journey to undertake.

Well I never seem to be able to keep to the 30 day challenges I set for myself. So in lieu of these challenges I am going to do something a little different, I find my life getting more hectic and stressful and seemingly crazy. It's bringing mass amounts of turmoil within myself as well.

So I am going to every single day for the next year work on finding a little bit more inner peace within myself and try to reconnect with who I really am. I feel in this myriad dazzlement of today's society and all the stresses that come with it are finally starting to take it's toll on my body. I am overtired, stressed, feeling a bit more anxious then I have ever felt before in my life. My personal writing is getting back into that dark and dreary worlds of existence. Everything that I have held dear has lost it's connection with me, and my dreams for my life and what I want to do are non-existent right now. Winter is nearing and if I am feeling this way already I cannot imagine what winter is going to be like for me.

If you anyone has any advice on how to move forward with this new adventure, please let me know! I know that today I am going to make it all about fun. I have a new gaming hobby/ obsession called HeroClix and some people are getting together today to play. I think with working 9 days straight, one day off then working 13 days straight with 1 day off and who knows what the next couple weeks will bring, is taking it's toll the most. I don't eat properly, don't exercise too much, don't find time to just breath.

I have to find my balance! I will find it! I am determined to, for my mind, body and soul!

I suppose then I will try to keep an update, here and there. I plan to do blog everyday about this. This is but a goal, a realization that I am the only one who can make the changes to feel better about myself, to find myself, to centre myself.

Though I will need a little help from family and friends for encouragement and support on this newest of journeys.

Friday

Gah! Been up for a little while now this morning.. Not looking forward to the really busy work day ahead of me. Probably not going to be a very good day, and this is thinking based upon last night's fiasco at work. Ah well, one can only do so much, we are all human after all.

This is the last day of working 13 days in a row! Yikes! So many days in a row can drive a person a little batty.. and to think before the other last day I had off I worked 9 days straight. I haven't even been at my new job for more then a month and already I think I need a vacation! Not that I am going to get that anytime soon as I am still under the 3 month probation. Still I hope I am holding up in this particular job.

Anyhow...

I am so looking forward to my one day off this week especially since I didn't get my last day I was supposed to have off because I got called into work. At least this week hasn't been a lot of 3 hour shifts. I really hate 3 hour shifts because then I spend at least half that amount of time time going to and from work, if not as much time as I do working.( All depends on the bus system.. yeah... really crappy!)

Well I think I have done enough writing for one morning! I hope to write more here, and hopefully not about how I work so much!

Have a good day!